Follow your bliss

I hate not knowing what’s going on. Why don’t you understand how scared shitless you make me?

Decisive and intentioned 
precise and patterned specifically to yours.
I’m talented at breathing 
Especially exhaling 
So that my chest will rise and fall with yours 

I’m careful not to wake you 
Fearing conversation 
It’s better just to hold you 
And keep you pacified 
I’m talented with reason 
I cover all the angles 
I can fail before I ever try 

Try to understand there’s an old mistake that fools will make 
And I’m the king of them, pushing everything that’s good away 
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break) 
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break) 

I am fairly agile
I can bend and not break 
Or I can break and take it with a smile 
And I am so resilient 
I recover quickly 
I’ll convince you soon that I am fine 
Try to understand there’s and old mistake that fools will make 
And I’m the king of them, pushing everything that’s good away 
Wont you hold me now (I will not bend I will not break) 
Wont you hold me now (For you I rise, for you I fall)

Just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you 
Just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you, to you 

And try to understand there’s and old mistake that fools will make 
And I’m the king of them, pushing everything that’s good away 
So wont you hold me now? 
Wont you hold me now? 
Now, now, now, now, now

I have never felt so frustrated, upset and alone. I just want to scream at the top of my lungs and I can’t. All the people I wish I could talk to, I can’t. I’d fucking give a kidney for someone to understand right now.